Christmas Tree Fail.

When I was growing up, my parents always bought a real Christmas tree. I was so used to having a real tree. I thought I would not be able to get a real tree out here in Japan. So,  I went to the MCX on base and bought an artificial tree. I came home and set it up immediately. As I was setting it up, I kept looking at it and it just did not look good. My husband told me to just set it up and decorate it and it will start to look good. It still did not look good to me. I took all the ornaments and lights off, put the tree back in the box and returned it. Now, do not get me wrong there are beautiful artificial trees, but they cost a fortune. The one I bought was sixty dollars. That can explain why it looked so crappy. I just came to the conclusion I would not have a tree this year. One day I went to the MCX again and saw they had a tent full of real trees. My heart skipped a beat. I was so happy, I was going to get a real tree! I went inside and asked to buy one, but they were not selling them until after Thanksgiving. After Thanksgiving, my amazing husband went and bought me a tree. I was so excited to finally set up my tree and see how Jason would react to the tree. Needless to say he was excited. This tree was so tall, full, and smelled so good, there were no bald spots. It was just gorgeous.

As the weeks went by, the tree started to not take the water. It started getting dry, stiff, and started shedding like crazy. I eventually took off the decorations and lights. I did not want to burn down my house with Christmas lights. We are now using my son’s little tree his best friend sent him to put gifts around. I am not ashamed to show you all my fails, I am not perfect and I will never pretend to be perfect. This is my life. I hope you all get a little laugh out of this. To be honest, it is freaking hilarious. My poor tree did not make it to Christmas.  I just can not keep plants alive to save my life! I think I will invest in a good artificial tree for next year. Let me know if you all have had any fails during the holidays.


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Keep Calm, Christmas Break is Here.

Today was the last day of my fall semester, And I could not be any happier. I passed both my classes with high B’s. I have not been in school for about two years. I attended college before and I could have finished my associates degree by now, but my life took a different route. It took the route of getting married and starting a beautiful family and would not have wanted it any other way. I would eventually like to attend school for nursing. Being in Japan makes it a little difficult to do any nursing programs. So, for now, I am just accumulating credits instead of doing nothing for three years. I will eventually finish school and walk across the stage. It does not matter how long it takes to get there, as long as I get there.

Going back to college after two years was tough. I doubted myself so much. The first week of the semester I had a breakdown. I started to cry because stress and feeling like a failure. I was so overwhelmed with being a mom, a wife, and a student. I felt like my son was not getting the attention he wanted and needed. I felt like my house was turned upside down. Getting a thirty-minute workout, a day was a miracle, if I was able to do so that day. My amazing husband was my greatest support system. He encouraged me every day and helped me with my stress. I would not have been able to get through it if it was not for my husband. Eventually, I was able to manage everything that was thrown my way. I do not know how all you beautiful mama’s who work, go to school and have a baby keep yourself sane. You all are amazing. For any mama’s who are in school or are starting school and feel like you can not handle it, do not let it get you down. It will all eventually come together and it you will start to kick butt! It all takes time, if you are feeling overwhelmed just take a step back, breathe. Remember you are all that and a bag of chips and you can do whatever you set your mind to. There is nothing wrong with taking a break from school if it comes really overwhelming. Like I said before, it does not matter how long it takes to get there, as long as you get there.





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Seeking Faith.

Moving to Japan has its ups and downs. One of the downs is not being able to go to church. It has been hard to find a church around here. We have a chapel on base, but the service is more like a mass. I like to worship and praise the Lord, I can not just sit there listening to the mass for two hours. It has been hard for me to connect with God. I feel like over the years I have been drifting away from God. I have been trying to form a better spiritual relationship by reading my devotional and bible everyday. This ritual has become very important to me. I take a few minutes out of my day to just sit in peace and thank God for all he has blessed me and my family with. There are times my day gets hectic, with my son, wifely duties and school. If I miss a day, I feel so guilty for missing those daily one on one moments. I know it is not the same relationship as if when one goes to church but it is better than not having anything at all. Talking to God makes me feel at peace. If it were not for praying for guidance, I would not have started my blog. I pray everyday for the Lord to show me the purpose he has for my life. I know I am meant to do great things. When we first moved to Japan, I had really bad anxiety and I was against taking medication. I was not getting any sleep and I was over thinking and worrying about every little thing. Now, I just pray to keep me calm and at peace. I can give all my worries, stress, and problems to God and know everything will be okay. I know this is a sticky topic to talk about, because not many people have faith in God or are the same religion, but that is okay. We are all free to have our opinions and the freedom to practice whatever religion we chose. I am beyond blessed, thanks to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. LRG_DSC02187


Shopping in Japan.

When we were back in the states and my husband would have duty, Target was my favorite place to be. Since moving to Japan, I have been deprived from Target,  I miss strolling the Target aisles, especially the dollar section. Roaming the aisles helped me pass the time so I would not get bored and alone at home. There is only one store on base, the MCX, now do not get me wrong the MCX is great and has great deals but there is not much to see. One of my favorites stores in Japan is this magical dollar store called, Daiso. I call it the dollar store on crack. It kind of puts the dollar store in the states to shame. Obviously, the merchandise they sell is Japanese, but they sell the cutest things; from toilet scrubbers and house goods to cheap Disney things. I love that place, but it still can not replace Target. I think the japanese heard our cry because they opened a store called, Nitori, it is like a japanese Target. Since, my husband dreads coming to stores with me, Jason and I took a little trip to check it out. It was not as good as Target, but it did the trick. They had the cutest christmas decorations and decor. I will definitely be going back to stroll the aisles and pretend it is Target. Although, I do not have a Target or a Hobby Lobby and I have to wait forever and a day for my packages to arrive. Japan has been an amazing, once in a life time experience. Many more new experiences and adventures to come.


A Gift From Above.

Children are a blessing. They may not be planned but they are a gift from God. I am beyond grateful for my squishy bear. There was a time I thought I would not have the chance to carry my own child. At the age of 18, I was told I would not be able to conceive. This news broke my heart into a million pieces. With tears in my eyes, I told my parents they would not get any grandkids from me. They looked at me and told me not to be discouraged and that God will bless me with a bundle of joy on day. All I can think to myself is “how can they say that? I took a test and it proved I could not get pregnant.” I could not get over the fact I could not get pregnant, it upset me to no end. Why could I not get pregnant? There are so many women getting pregnant that are drug addicts, women who do not want a baby and get abortions, yet there are women who are trying and would give anything to be able to carry their child. As the years went by I accepted the fact I would not be able to start my little family. However, my Almighty Lord  had different plans. On my 22nd birthday, my husband and I went to Raleigh to visit my in-laws and celebrate my birthday. As I was sitting on the couch my mother in law looks at me and says; “you are glowing, you need to take a pregnancy test.” I looked at her with a “are you joking” face and told her, ” you know I can not get pregnant, right?.” Long story short, my husband went out to buy me a test. I took the test, since I thought it would come out negative I started to get a little depressed. I was confident it would not come out positive, I mean why would this test be any different from the other tests I have taken. A few minutes go by, I walk out and ask “what does 2 lines mean ?” I was in such disbelief. Like holy moly. It finally happened I am going to have a baby. I was so overjoyed and blessed to be able to carry a baby for 9 months. On June 5th, 2016, my handsome baby boy came into the world. He looked just like his daddy. Everyday I thank God for blessing me with my squishy bear. He is the most happy, hyper, loving, smiley, and funny toddler ever. I wish I could snuggle him all day, everyday but he is Mr. Independent always running around all over the place. But when he lets me snuggle him, I enjoy and embrace every second of it. he truly is my little angel from above. If you are going through a hard time and are trying to start your family, do not get discouraged. It will happen at the most unexpected time. There are always other ways to start your family. Just have faith.

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A Very Special Ornament.

As I was placing this ornament on our Christmas tree I could not help but to feel blessed. This ornament has a special meaning to me, it reminds me that I am lucky to have these combat boots lying on my living room floor. I would get so upset and annoyed everytime I tripped over the boots or had to pick them up and put them away. One day as I put the boots away I began to think about those families who have lost love ones fighting for their country. I am very fortunate to have my husband come home every day to play with our son and give me a kiss goodnight. This ornament is a reminder to never take any moments for granted; because at any moment my husband could be gone and those boots will no longer be on my floor but will be on enemy ground. I will always try to be the best wife I can be, to always love and support my husband. These boots are our lives. boots

The Christmas Spirit.

It’s the most wonderful time of the year! My favorite time of year has finally arrived, Christmas! Everything about this season is amazing, the weather, the fashion, the beautiful lights, and most importantly being with family and friends. I go all out for Christmas; you can call me Mrs. Claus. I go crazy decorating my home and making it feel as magical as I can, I mean it looks like the North Pole puked in my house. I make sure the gifts are perfect for all my friends and family, and so far I have not gotten any complaints. Even though this will be the first year spent away from our family and friends for Christmas and the New Years, we get to create our own little family traditions. It is very depressing since I have always been with my family or my amazing in laws for the holidays, but one year down two more years to go. Being in Japan has been an amazing experience and a great opportunity to explore a new country and have amazing adventures. Thankfully the beautiful people of Japan celebrate Christmas too. Like I said the lights are one of my favorite things about the holidays. Being able to see the Christmas lights and decorations out in town makes me feel happy but also seeing  Jason’s reaction to the lights is everything to me.blogpic.JPG